On the Cusp of Change

Yesterday was Josh's birthday.  So when I got home from practice, we went out to eat at a favorite restaurant of ours.  As we sat there, (after 8 pm) we had the place to ourselves and were able to just talk.  The primary topic of conversation was what to name our little bean.  As we discussed names we liked and gave our reasons for vetoing the names we weren't fond of, I was struck by how much our world will change this fall.  It was such a neat moment to savor, to enjoy the fact that after this fall, we won't dream about the child we will have (until the next little one, but we'll already have one at home at that point).  After this fall it will be different.  If we are out to dinner alone we'll probably discuss our child at some point in the conversation and we'll go pick them up after we are done with our date.

This savory moment made me thankful for two reasons.  1. We've had 5 years of marriage together prior to having children.  We've had so much fun in our 5 years and have had great opportunities to lay a firm foundation for our future family.  We just enjoy each other and things don't get overly complicated in our relationship.  I'm married to my best friend.  2. I was thankful to be able to look to the fall and think about WHEN we have our baby, not IF we have our baby.  I know that in this life there are no guarantees but it was so freeing to be able to trust and hope in that moment that we will be able to meet this baby and bring them home this fall.  This was probably the first moment that I was able to think about my little one and say when not if.

Here's to a week that started out with trusting God and letting go of my fears and apprehensions.  I'm excited to see where it takes me.

The Sweetest Little Wave

On Monday we had our first ultrasound.  I really didn't get many views of the baby but Josh was able to watch the whole time and got to see our baby waving away.  When the ultrasound tech let me see I was able to see our little bean like baby waving.  So cute.

So I would like to introduce to you Firepower Excalibur Chainsaw :)

The giant black blob above the baby is my giant bladder.  It was so full that the tech said, WOAH, your bladder is full!  She wasn't kidding.

And the view from the outside on Monday.

He Loves Me

I love that Josh and I have been married for nearly 5 years and I still am smitten.  I have spent a lot of time on the couch lately because I'm growing a human and I'm tired and woozy a lot.  As I sit and write this, he loaded the dishwasher and ran it (the sink is empty) and he leveled the washer so that it won't sound like a freight train anymore.  I love the ways that he shows me he loves me and I'm thankful.

Wooooah!

Ok, the title is my best impression of someone riding a horse or driving a carriage.  Sometimes I have to say that to myself, Woooooaaah Cara.  This isn't something new.  I believe I've posted about this before.  I'm so guilty of wanting to rush to the next thing and I'm afraid I miss the here and now as a result.  So I figured, one of the best ways to get yourself under control and get some accountability is to tell other people.  I don't want to always hit the fast forward button.  I want to enjoy today.

It started this morning when a friend posted a photo of a gorgeous fall scene.  Immediately, I had this intense desire for it to be fall.  To have pumpkins and mums on my porch again and to make things with pumpkin and cinnamon in them.  But the reality is that it is March, not October.  So my challenge is to figure out a way to enjoy March 7 with the same passion I enjoy fall days or the Christmas season.

I don't very often do this, but I want to hear from you.  What things do you do to enjoy the seemingly mundane days?  Or if you suffer from the same thing I do, how will you begin to try to live differently?  I'm not sure how, but I'd like to add a bit of the passion I have for the end of the year to the beginning and middle.  I look forward to hearing from you.